This was a poem that was recited at the end of the movie Smoke Signals, a movie about two Native American friends who go on a journey to find and forgive absent fathers. Their smoke signals are cries for help. The movie was just fair but the ending was wonderful, with this poem being recited over beautiful cinematography. (I put the poets name in lower case in keeping with how I like my poets…)
forgiving our fathers
by dick lourie
how do we forgive our fathers?
maybe in a dream
do we forgive our fathers for leaving us too often or forever
when we were little?
maybe for scaring us with unexpected rage
or making us nervous
because there never seemed to be any rage there at all.
do we forgive our fathers for marrying or not marrying our mothers?
for divorcing or not divorcing our mothers?
and shall we forgive them for their excesses of warmth or coldness?
shall we forgive them for pushing or leaning
for shutting doors
for speaking through walls
or never speaking
or never being silent?
do we forgive our fathers in our age or in theirs
or their deaths
saying it to them or not saying it?
if we forgive our fathers what is left?
* This poem was originally published in a longer version titled “Forgiving Our Fathers” in a book of poems titled Ghost Radio.